First let me say that without God Almighty, I could not have survived. Here is my story. I was first married in the late 1970's, she left in 1989 and took my children to Oklahoma.  Because of my anxiety and low self-esteem I would let people run all over me, so I accepted the situation and went on with life. in 1996 I had over-extended myself in debt (long story) and filed bankruptcy, and shortly after that I was diagnosed with cancer on the base of my tongue. Back then, all the radiation to the throat made eating very painful and also it changed my smell and taste. With little desire to eat I tried whatever I could think of to nourish my body like babyfood, various foods I could easily mash to pulp, but ended up living mainly on Ensure drink (Thankfully, nowadays there are a variety of foods and juices to eat and drink to keep up your strength!).

Needless to say I lost a LOT of weight, but I had a desire to make it. Matter of fact when the doctor first told me he found cancer, I stood to my feet, looked him square in the eye and said "My God CAN and WILL heal me of this" and God did indeed heal me using doctors and treatments. I kept beside me a little booklet called "God's Creative Healing" by Charles Capps, please get several copies to share with others! Finally after 1-1/2 yrs on Ensure drink I could eat solid food, and it took appx another 1-1/2 yr to gain back my strength and go back to work. Now the challenge was to find a new vocation as my other was not available, so I ended up 'Rehabing' houses and selling them.

By this time anxiety had set in more-so ( I had anxiety since childhood) When the housing market went bad in my area, I was forced to now look for another vocation, "Wow, what a challenge," I thought. While taking training to work for an energy provider company in Ft. Worth, I had to travel, then things seemed to mount higher and higher on me then bad panic attacks set in. For 1 year I had no idea what to do about all the anxiety; I felt stuck, but them I found a anxiety program, went through it, it helped but didn't clear things up, I found another program that has very much helped me. Wow, finally the most freedom from fear and anxiety I have had in years (feel free to ask me the name, I will email it to you)!

I am now free to go where I want to go, do what I want to do without terrible fear/concerns weighing me down or paralyzing me! I am still working through a few things but I have real freedom now! Almost forgot to mention the drugs/alcohol, I quit them in 1985 when my second son was born. I knew I was almost usless and I didn't want to pass that kind of lifestyle on to my children. I took a very-very deep look into myself and went to rehab, I have not drank since then. I don't think I could have made it through any of this without the help of God Almighty! Even though I was not a Christian until 1987, I look back and see how God saved me from myself many times over and over! Lord God I thank You for Everything, and I Thank You for the opportunities ahead of me! AMEN.